I want to Die Young

   We all think about death.
In one capacity or another. Most of us don't have to deal with it, until it happens to some one we know or love.
Frightening stuff, because we are left behind.
   My thoughts, considerations and musings on 'Death' was refreshed upon reading Jennifer Worth's, author of 'Call the Midwife', 'In the Midst of Life.'
Her book was a thorough compilation of her experiences in the medical profession as well as the up-close and personal aspects of death.
It's not creepy, or morbid, or dysfunctional in the slightest.
If you are young and rearing for any little surprises life throws at you, nothing can be further from your thoughts.
Mostly because you're just trying to get through the 'tick list' that is your day, looking forward to the things you like best with the folks you like best.
   Our culture is composed of 'live life to the fullest' be beautiful, be fast, be FABULOUS DAWLING!
With countless and counting even more ways of doing so.
Our adversity to dying maybe comes from a generation just passing, still more than a little raw in the wake of the First and Second World wars and God keep the soldiers fighting now.
   Those deaths are unnatural.
Imposed by leaders trying to justify their validity to their God and Country by sending thousands of men and women to their hideous injuries and deaths. The lucky ones go quickly.
Many soldiers have a 'letter of death', as means of comfort to those left behind. It just shows the amazing attitudes they have in the life their living. They feel they are making valuable controbutions.
Don't any one dare tell them they're not.
But they wouldn't have this history, if world leaders would do the honourable thing.
Here's just a suggestion....just putting it out there, what if they put themselves in the line of fire!
In a room, on their own.
The victor is the one that comes out of the room and declares 'NEXT!'
Until all the leaders and their successors will actually start thinking about what would be appropriate for the people they are supposed to be ruling.
                                                           *TANGENT ALERT!*
   Sorry.
Death has also been described as the 'angel of mercy'.
Especially for the elderly without hope of a quality of life. Or people horrifically injured or people with a particularly aggressive, incurable disease.
My Aunt died last summer of cancer.
It wasn't localised, it was wide spread.
Here's the thing. She was feeling fine one day, next week along, she felt unwell.
I'm not sure what made her check for cancer, but there you go.
She refused treatment. Not without careful consideration, she just knew it would be prolonged with more misery than she was willing to put herself and her family through.
She was also a registered nurse, well aware of medical advancement and the life prolonging benefits trained doctors can provide.
   I would like to think that Do Not Resuscitate, was some thing they discussed to add to the peace of natural death.
Oh, here's a heads up, apparently, a doctor has to put a reasonable excuse for a death not treated as suspicious. Natural Causes, is not a registered reason.
Even if you die in your sleep, you're supposed to have left us with a reason other than just 'peacefully checked out'.
   I have been a care assistant in a home for the elderly and a home for disabled adults.
In one case, a 45yr. old woman had been successfully revived in a horrendous car accident where she lost her beloved husband.
She was left a paraplegic, with a colostomy bag.
Unable to communicate except with her eyes. (Some times she would blink out the alphabet until we could guess what she was after.)
She would have painful fitting, howling in her agonising prison.
   I would rather have left this world. God's hands are gentle once death has taken us.
Paramedics are duty bound to bring in a patient 'alive.'
Alive is: Breathing.
For doctors, when they take over, can be action of further proportions. (I use this term loosely, as I am not a doctor.)
   My mother and I spoke of her 'wishes'. She told me that most doctors believe in euthanasia.
But only a small proportion of them would enforce it if they could.
It conflicts with their 'duty' as well as their moral obligation to human life.
   As medical technology gallops along side the Apocalypse horses, morality has become a strained
subject.
I am a Christian, my relationship with the Lord is loving, trusting and respectful.
At my end, I hope to have peace, to leave peacefully and to leave peace behind.
I don't want any jumped up medical ethics sticking down my throat or up my backside or thumping electric currents through me........
Because nobody wants to be around if I wake up!
Just because you can bring someone back to life, doesn't mean you should.
Most people whom are dying, know what they are doing.
   With my own Father's illness with M.S. we all suffered his deterioration and wilful self neglect for 25 years. This included alcohol and mental abuse if said alcohol was withheld. He was taken kicking and cussing to rehab, only to come back mean as a half starved raccoon.
Mum had to leave the house most days at 5:00 a.m. to get to the glazier factory where she worked.
Dad died one morning of a massive heart attack.
He was found by home care workers.
The police were called and were waiting for Mum when she got home, exhausted from her manual labour.
That, was more or less ....that.
   I can tell you one thing for free though, if anyone had found him earlier and revived him,
Mum would have taken them 'round back and given them a damned good seeing to!

   I want to die young.......as late in life as possible.
Love Val X.